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Being Body Positive and Losing Weight

5/9/2018

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This article is a personal journey and admission of guilt. Yes, I feel guilty for losing weight. Click the read more button and follow along my journey and plan to conquer.​
​I've been very open about my journey over the years, so as a quick recap for those of you that don't know, I was at my peak fitness and smallest size (healthy), until I suffered an injury and never got back into fitness. It took me a while to accept becoming plus size, and then I took it on full force and really advocated for other plus size women and cosplayers.

I  started the keto diet this year, and I've seen great results from it. Recently on Instagram I shared a photo of my success and I started to feel guilty about my weight loss.
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I felt like with my weight loss, I was letting down the plus size community. I know, that's a ridiculous thing to think, but I tend to put heavy emphasis on what everyone else thinks. I felt like if I got skinnier, I would be banished from the community, or would be looked down upon by others, or worse, lose the ability to inspire others.

Losing weight is just as hard a journey as gaining it. When you gain weight, you deal with emotional turmoil, denial, depression, and more depending on the person. Weight loss has it's own trials. It's hard. Sticking to a strict diet, or going to the gym routinely is extremely tiring, and sometimes it takes so long to see results, you begin to experience self doubt.
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​So for me, I deal with all these doubts and push through all these challenges, only to feel guilty for getting healthy. I feel like I'm not working hard enough, like I should be running an hour each day, eating kale at each meal, and I feel like I've cheated the system and now I'm letting people down.

Now, this is about self affirmation more than trying to prove myself, but I'm writing it for anyone else who's ever felt the same way:

It is OKAY to do what's best for your body. Being healthy and strong is important, no matter what size. I'm sure you've seen the #skinnythick trend with women with tiny waists and huge thighs, and I think it's a nice segway between skinny society and curvy society.
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​The most important thing to me was how this process makes me feel. Before the keto diet I would binge eat, get fast food at late hours, eat donuts and cinnamon buns and anything that had bread or sugar in it. I would always feel bloated and get headaches and just chalked it up to eating too much, or not drinking enough water.

BUT, after being on keto for only two weeks, I never experienced a headache, and I never had that gross bloated feeling. And for me, that is more important than the guilt of losing weight. It's always hard to remember that ME comes first.

And I think most people see that too. It's only my distorted mind that says people will be disappointed, or lose interest. As with anything, people follow others for the person they are, and for sharing what they enjoy. So I'm pushing through my doubt and being OK to proceed with my decision.
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​If you're experiencing this too, I encourage you to always be OK with self care. It is the most important thing, whether it's mental or physical. I'm still feeling a bit guilty in my mind, but I know what I'm doing is good, so I will keep doing it and being healthy and encouraging others to feel the same.

If you have any questions or doubts of your own, feel free to message me and we can have a discussion, or even comment below! We all struggle somewhere!
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Chris
5/9/2018 05:38:37 pm

Congrats on all your hard work, you can certainly see a change. I think you have the right attitude, you need to do what you think is best and try not to concern yourself with what other people will think. Now that being said it's harder than it sounds. Just keep being you!

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Garry
5/10/2018 07:57:49 am

I think this is great. You should still be heralded as an inspiration to the plus size community, for the exact reason that you are in fact losing weight. I believe we need to feel comfortable in our bodies (even though I am far from that myself) but that is about attitude and feeling confident. That confidence should be used to lose the weight. I am not a proponent of Fat but Fit. Studies indicate over and over again that is a myth. I also think fat acceptance is a dangerous thing if used in the wrong way. To me fat acceptance is that we will not judge, criticise or otherwise marginalise heavy people. It does not mean that we should accept obesity as a life style and fool ourselves into thinking we are still healthy.

I think that plus sized people need to be embraced and encourage to feel confident. Plus sized cosplayers are truly fearless and certainly strong people there is zero doubt about that and I hold nothing but positive regard for such individuals. It is about bravery during the process.

I was in my 30's when I had a heart attack. I was almost 230 lbs, and thought that despite my weight I was relatively healthy. I guess not. Currently I am about 212 lbs. and carry it relatively well but I do need to lose a minimum of 20 lbs. Carrying extra weight increases my heart attack risk 10 fold.

So never feel guilty about working on yourself. Those that would shun you would be delusional. You should be held to that of hero! Encouraging others through your struggle. Never feel embarrassed to lose weight. Your sisters and brothers in the cosplay world will continue to honour and embrace your strength. As I said, plus sized cosplayers are still heros and brave in their own right. They show more courage than most out there but I think that courage and strength will be shared with you on their journey. You have shown that being plus sized should never stop you from your dreams, that you are still allowed to participate and deserve all the same treatment as anyone else, but that is just part of a life positive journey.

I know its a touchy subject so understand these are just personal opinions and not judgements, but I think you have done amazing and you inspire me! Now if I can just get off my own butt and practice what I preach!

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Subwoofer
5/13/2018 05:44:01 am

Good story. Because of you I am feeling motivated for today. One day at a time. Going from an extremely narcissistic time in university where I was training 4+ hours a day to having kids and not much personal time is an adjustment. I feel guilty when I spend time away from my children.
Going to be googling your diet. I tried the intermittent fasting, Terry Crews does it, but it leaves me a grumpy bear in the morning. Something where I am not looking to eat the kitchen table or snap at the slightest bit of stress.
Something that is flexible around a busy life.
Great that you are having success. Folks are wierd, but success should be rewarded, not punished. Hope you get where you want to be.

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